Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life! Isn't that how the saying goes? Well, for me that's how it goes, because yesterday I realized that I have no passion in my life. Today I'm taking it easy and pondering that, and tomorrow the search begins.
I'm a 38 year old woman living in Las Vegas. I've been working as a waitress for over 20 years and have recently become unemployed. I live with my wonderful boyfriend, who is an entrepreneur and an avid scholar so therefore, is generally very busy. This is good and bad for me. Financially it makes life fairly easy- my personal bills are a minimum and everything else is taken care of, but with no job and nothing that I am passionate about doing, as he is, I find myself with way too much time on my hands- and you know what they say about idle hands! Since I have come to hate the profession at which I have toiled away for so long and don't really have the skills or experience to do much else in this horrible economy, I have decided to go on a concentrated search for whatever that hidden passion of mine might be.
There are and have been many things that I'm interested in or enjoy doing, but over the years most of those things have lost their "pizazz" for me. Maybe because I stopped doing them along the way, or maybe because I just don't enjoy them as much anymore. I intend to re-explore many of those things and newly explore many others.
Let's see...here are the things I can remember enjoying over the last 3 decades... horses-riding, training and showing. I no longer have any horses though, so that may have to wait. Writing-I still do this from time to time and would like to do more of it-hence, this blog. Reading-nice to pass time, but not a passion. Music-there's one. I used to play the clarinet, and I was a radio DJ for a few years in college (one of the many colleges where I never finished a degree). I've enjoyed acting, physical fitness, playing tennis, drawing, painting, computer design (another unfinished degree), cooking, baking, entertaining, nutrition/natural health care, snowboarding, roller-blading, swimming, dancing, scrap-booking (shhh...don't tell anyone), cake decorating, sewing, fashion, modeling, classic cars, camping, fishing, 4-wheeling...I can't seem to think of any others right now, so I guess those are the important ones.
I have probably had an interest in almost every single thing under the sun (that I've heard of) at one point or another. Most of those were fleeting interests, but perhaps worth looking into. I won't list them all, but want to jot down a few ideas of things that I've been interested in lately or that have stuck in my head over the years...
Photography, pinhole photography, singing(scares the crap out of me for some reason, but is also a draw), fashion design, hang-gliding...hmm, that was a short list, but I guess it gives me a few things to think about.
So, there it is, the beginning of my blog, which in the following entries will document the search for life and passion in my own life (and hopefully make me a better writer)!
